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Ok, fine, you win. I'm on board.

5x08 - the craziest crazy ever to crazy, but I feel like Jensen and Jared must have had so much fun filming the fake tv intro that it's totally worth it. ^_^

I am pretty sure that this is exactly what Grey's Anatomy was like when I was watching it. With the soulful music, and the random violence and emergency surgeries. Only Jensen is hotter than any of the Grey's doctors. (And they're mocking Denny, who was played by the same actor as John fucking Winchester.) Nah, I would rather watch Dr. Sexy, M.D.
The Japanese gameshow... I could totally have won. Just sayin'.

Rant number one of probably many.

So.... I made it through the intro episodes and into the team building episodes. I love that the intro updates for who is and isn't on the team at the moment.

I love seeing MODOK and the AIM idiots. Despite what a terrible idea anything to do with AIM is.

I loved the ten seconds of conversation between Tony and Steve in the mansion at the end of Cap's second episode.

I love Thor's stupid face and 'aye' and 'verily' and how his hair is always shifting in a non-existant breeze. (And how we haven't seen Loki since the origin episode... which is either terrifying or... yeah, terrifying.)

I love Janet and Hank, and understanding them as a part of the Avengers team. Hank keeps Tony honest and brings him back to earth in a way that no one on the current movie Avengers does. There aren't many people who match Tony's intellect, so it's nice to have one of them around.

I love Natasha's stupid double-triple crossing and knowing that Clint is out there somewhere.... being noble and right, but not trusting SHIELD.

Wow, Tony. Two suits in an episode? Really? I would talk about Steve and his bike, or about Enchantress being a complete dick (which reminds me that I want to go re-read Off the Record. Like now.)... but this was Episode 10 and I need to just sit here and feel my Tony feels right now. Poor boy.

Jesus fuck, I think AIM has the tesseract though... so that's a problem.

I just really want Coulson involved in this... like stupidly much.

So. Today. For the record.
Don't have any idea how I will continue going to this job as it is literally and figuratively driving me to insanity.
Also deeper depression.
And anger.
And rage.
And misery.

I have no idea how I would survive without the job because enormous pile of debt and no savings. Right. So.

Oh yeah, also, they wrote me up for stupid shit today, so I cannot transfer for THREE MONTHS. Anywhere. Even home. Even to a tiny store somewhere else.

I can not unthink that these things may be related.

In short. The internet is the only thing keeping me from weeping right now. Also, my eyes hurt and I want to sleep for about a year.

Yeah, a year would be good.

So... started out the day pretty positive and played some RockBand. We were getting no reply from K about watching RvB tonight. No reply at all. So we decided to go check and make sure she got home from the airport/was all right/whatever... got there and realized that 1) she was fine but had not heard her phone and 2) was expecting to watch RvB at her place rather than ours. We still needed to leave to get food because we missed the turn on the way.
Also, I was planning to cook dinner at our place. I had mentioned this last night. When I mentioned to J that I'd been planning to do stuff at our place tonight, she said 'but K doesn't like coming to our place'. Which of course left me thinking about our situation. Again.

To me our living room isn't that bad. Especially right now, most of the mess is just blankets (which I fold up and then get draped over every available surface within a week) and remotes/controlers. My sewing table is in the living area, but I try to contain the mess from it. Not well but. Yeah. There are a lot of boxes still. Some because we don't have enough shelving. And some because my bedroom is tiny and already literally full of other boxes that I'm not allowed to keep in storage anymore.

So here I am, feeling worthless and judged and unhappy after having an otherwise great day. I hate that I can't tell how much of it is legitimate emotion and how much is the overall swing of a depression cycle. Or is the overall swing of depression still legitimate emotion? Beh. I hate that the only path I can see out of this is to get rid of a lot of my stuff. I have tried. I got rid of a ton of fabric, I've taken boxes of stuff to the thrift store. I've sold almost all my books and a lot of my cds.

ETA: Jess did end up unpacking a bunch of books that have been in her room since we moved. So It should be easier to sort through the manga now. Of course, she did this in a kind of cranky "I don't want to be doing work" way, but it did happen. And I emptied about three boxes of random crap. Still working on a couple more, those boxes are the worst, but easiest to get rid of stuff when I'm in the right mood.

Kat did come over and we watched the RvB S10 premiere and started S9. Which is pretty epic, I won't lie.

As someone who is constantly trying to get back to the good old days of my High School and Collage years.... it's starting to get hard to watch with all this graduation stuff happening.

So... "Choke" through "Nationals"
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And, I have feelings and a new theory about Sherlock after my second time through Reichenbach...
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Maybe.
On the Savage Lovecast this week, there was a long discussion about Asberger's and romance. And so so much of what they said, could actually be applied to Sherlock that I just sat there nodding and wanting to rant about it. It was kindof amazing.
Also made me realize that if the non-fictional person in my life who identified with Sherlock is on the autism spectrum somewhere it would explain a lot... and I really need to have a serious talk with her. That part is much harder that flailing about the semi-autistic theory to justify how Holmes/Watson could work.

Woken up today to learn that the main events of PAXEast are live streaming, which means that my weekend off isn't nearly so wasted, because I can see the PA panels and got to see the RoosterTeeth panel this morning!

Since then I have finished my first glovelet/fingerless mitten-thing with worsted weight yarn and the cuff modifications that I wanted and started the left hand. (My increases above the ribbing worked perfectly and now the cuff fits and stays put on me. Kris didn't want the fitted cuff, but I hae her yarn to start with next.

I also picked my next cosplay project and printed some reference. I'm going with The Corsair (Eveline Guerra) from AC:R multiplayer. I love her look, and my hair will work whether I cut it off or not. I have most of the fabric and patterns that I can modify the crap out of as needed, so I'm excited. This can also double as a pirate costume if I get the hat and ever need to attend a pirate party or Speak Like A Pirate Day event again. Also, she's my favorite.

I also also pushed through a bunch more recordings for the Arashi Roadtrip AU and am editing them now. Putting together the two collections (one in chronological/timeline order and one in posting order is going to be such a mind trip. I think I read in posting order first, which is easier to get into because you start with two and then three of the boys together already and traveling. Starting chronologically is slower, but you get the background story. I think I prefer posting order, but it's much harder to follow the story. Anyway, funtimes.

In picking Doctor Who back up (like 6 months after I watched "Let's Kill Hitler") it was really hard - as it always is - to readjust to Matt Smith. It didn't help that while "Night Terrors" was a Mark Gatiss episode, and super creepy, it wasn't the best for Eleven and the Ponds.
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In short: Ok, Mr. Moffat, it took you two years, but you may perhaps have won me over. Perhaps.

Listening to "Sherlock Holmes: The Rediscovered Railway Mystery" by John Taylor and read by Benedict Cumberbatch (the best thing I ever bought from Audible possibly).

So... in the second story, "The Connundrum of Coach 13"... there are two Americans mentioned in the pliot, the client Benedict, and his ex-wife Lara. My brain. It is having BBC crossover actor visualization problems.

Also, Ben's voice is lovely and I know why Cally listened to these stories over and over again. Nap time now though.

Don't even know what to do with myself this weekend. For once, all I'm required to do is keep myself entertained.

Started the UK version of The Office last night. A bit painful in that awkward embarassed-for-other-people way, but then there's Martin Freeman saying "cock" or dancing in most episodes to make up for the unfortunate reminders of what a shitty manager I actually am.
And then I started "The Last Enemy", which in thirty minutes has had Benedict Cumberbatch being both naked and a bit OCD. And MAKING OUT WITH GIRLS. Well, a girl. Still. Turns out he's also a genius researcher thing, and that it's a big brother freaky future thing.

I should be able to finish the Twilight Sparkle quilt tomorrow (today) and then I can start on whatever I want. I'm thinking some Donna Noble bits in case I make it down to Sakura to see Lor-Doctor.

Also, knitting. I took Kid's Knitting 101 from my favorite teacher the other week, and now am actually enjoying knitting. Just playing with straight knits and purls so far, but liking it quite a lot! Works well while listening to podcasts and Sherlock Holmes stories.

And god damn, but I love Benedict Cumberbatch. Just going to bask in that for a while. I'm thinking Sherlock marathon this weekend before ME3 comes out and any chance of using the TV is lost forever.