I don't know anymore
Oct. 19th, 2003 07:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
setraI've been through such a variety of emotions today that I don't even know anything anymore. I remembered today the importance of family to me, and I know that I would do anything for them. Yet that came on a day where I really did nothing interactive with my family at all. I just want Arella to be ok, more than anything.
I feel sick and tired and hungry, but I know it's just my brain telling me to eat to lift the depression. I wanted to go swimming, but my swim bag vanished. I want to write, but I can't get my brain in the right place to do anything but weep. The fact that I can't really cry either kindof ruins that possibility too.
I shouldn't be writing this. I wanted to talk to mom, but Rich called. Rich always calls, and my dislike of him doesn't lessen at all. I should come up with some better reason for not liking him... but I just don't know.
Anyway, I don't know what to do, I can't find my student ID either, so I'd have to do the whole proving my identity thing to get into the rec-center to swim anyway.
Bleh.
I feel sick and tired and hungry, but I know it's just my brain telling me to eat to lift the depression. I wanted to go swimming, but my swim bag vanished. I want to write, but I can't get my brain in the right place to do anything but weep. The fact that I can't really cry either kindof ruins that possibility too.
I shouldn't be writing this. I wanted to talk to mom, but Rich called. Rich always calls, and my dislike of him doesn't lessen at all. I should come up with some better reason for not liking him... but I just don't know.
Anyway, I don't know what to do, I can't find my student ID either, so I'd have to do the whole proving my identity thing to get into the rec-center to swim anyway.
Bleh.
