Happy New Year!

Well, in a few hours, but I'm prolly not gonna do anything untill or after then. Hmm.
In the past 24 hours I've watched:
Perfect Blue (dubbed)
X Episode 0
Samurai Deeper Kyo 1-3 (So much Megumi Ogata that my life is just better... and Ishida Akira! And Toshihiko Seki! Wai!)
My computer is not exploding, which is a nice change of pace. I'm not doing much for New Years...
I'm getting ready to leave on the 5th. I'm not sure I should, but I told Carol that I would so I guess I will. Driving in the bay area without Austin or mom will be wierd... very wierd.
I've been doing caligraphy and working on a letter to my host faimily from japan (which I need to beg on of the ni-nen-sei to grammer chack for me... because I know what I'm trying to say, but not how to say it always.
I'm also working on Angelique (work... heh) and getting ahead for next semester japanese. My mother told Dad and Carol about my grades... and I'm not dead yet, so maybe they're waiting untill I get there to kill me... I don't know. And I'm begining to get the feeling that I won't get to meet Zero because Kat'll bring her up here after I'm gone...
*stops*
*smile*
Not getting all self-pitying right now. Not whining. Done.
Happy New Years all!
Bishonen: Kamui
Bishojo: Hokuto

Right...

So first Carol called, just to confirm that she'd be looking into tickets, because I always have second thoughts about trips. I said, "No, I'm good to go."
Then my brain went "You DO always have second thoughts about trips and you haven't even had first thoughts about this one. Mweheheh."
So I start pondering, and getting more and more depressed. This is why I hate Winter. Anyway, then Carol calls back. $179 for one-way to CA. Which isn't bad I guess... but... so I said I'd just not go. So unless I call back with a decision that I really do want to go, then I'm here for the duration. And I feel sick and tired and uterly apathetic. It's cold, and dark.
And I haven't heard from Austin. I hope he's ok... he looked really bad last time I saw him.
I think I'm going to go DO something. Probably beadwork. I'm not sure. I need to pull myself out of this slump soon.
I wish... I don't know. Sorry for the whining.
Bishonen: Julious (hoping)
Bishojo: Kotori (dreaming)